Home alone :)

This week is a BUSY week
Took parents around spore
11pm sleep 7 wake up woow
So healthy haha

Okay
Parents are back
Home alone again
Nice
Lots of things to do before i land myself a job lol
Weeeeeeee

Peace & Love,
Xuan

我反感的人

有些人为了追一个女孩
可以把其他人都不放在眼里
那女孩是宝
其他女孩是草
问题是
事实上是倒反才令人讨厌
他当宝的女孩把他当草
可是他当草当的很开心
所以我们旁人最好就闭起双眼
相信我
因为连睁一只眼都会气死你

有些女孩
为了要受异性欢迎
可以做到很假
如果人生是一场戏
她可以年年拿Grammy's award
最佳假假奖
每个男生都要讨好
也对
出问题时
毕竟男生比较能帮忙
女孩朋友能帮得了什么
所以她很精明的选择异性朋友为主

我不会去可怜那些喜欢上她的男孩
更不会关心她以后的男朋友对她是怎样
因为她既然做这些事
就知道会有报应
我不是说什么天打雷劈的报应
而只是那些足够让她后悔的报应

我也很坦白承认我不喜欢她
23年来
就这么一个女子的性格让我那么反感
而且反感那么久

知道我讲谁的人就知道是谁
不知道的人就不知道是谁
(copy from yeap jia wei lol)

Down to singapore

Down to Singapore again :DD
Things have changed a lot
Especially certain places
Nearly couldn't recognize
I'm amazed how one to two years time can make such a big difference
My hometown too
BIG CHANGE in just one or two years time

Well
Its the same for human too right? hehe
During Form 6 I want to be an engineer
2 years later after graduated I want to become an accountant
Years later
I dont want to be an accountant
I want to be in finance or banking industry
We change without us realizing
Change is the only constant :D

Oh met biao jie and and biao jie fu
Havent seen them in decades
Couldn't even recognize them
Like my first time seeing them
They are unlike other rich families
They are nice and friendly
The interactions between husband and wife, parents to son are harmonious
I like this type of family
So i started thinking how to have a happy family

That isssssss
Choose a good tempered husband
And this guy must listen to girl(which means must not a male chauvinist)
And most importantly LOVE(疼） you 
How to identify?
For example
A couple saw one square-like pear
Girl: "This pear is square"
Boy: "Aiya, pear where got square one" OR " No lah, pear is pear shape la"
Like want a dispute (immature)
Or showing no interest (male chauvinist)
If even in a relationship that guy gives answer something like that
Dont you expect this guy will listen to you patiently after you marry him
For me,
Good tempered also means mature
Mature means even when the girl is wrong
The guy will not directly point out but teach her indirectly
Even the girl made mistakes
The guy will forgive her and show her he loves her

Good tempered husband with bad tempered wife = happy family
Bad tempered husband with good tempered wife = tragedy

So far the families i've came across
I've only seem good tempered husband with bad tempered wife creates a happy family
Never the opposite side

I know what i need haha
I need a guy who 疼 me, good tempered, good listener and good at memorizing things lol
And dont become a guy's first
Guys always learn through experiences
Be the guy's last
And be a girl's first
Because your everything she sees

HOPE I'LL GET A JOB HERE SOON =D

Peace & Love,
Xuan

fala

Just back from KL
Fuiyo learned new things
My cousin is a wedding make up artist
Dont know since when I am into this hair styling thingy
She taught me some ways to tie hair <3
So happy
Because if you dont have basics like me
Even if you go youtube search
It takes forever for you to understand the tips and tricks
And I also finally understanddddddddd
Why my hair keep falling down when i tie them up
My hair is too heavy
Because too moisturize
Tooo moisturize and too smooth
So very hard to actually style my hair
Good thing is just dont have to 烫直透发
Cons, hard to style :((
She asked me to 'spoil' my hair a bit lol
Very easy to style hair if your hair is spoilt like my sister
She envy my hair is moisturized
I envy her hair is easy-to-style lol

The recover

I've graduated 5 months ago
The first two months I studied for my professional paper, CMA
which unfortunately I failed
Then the following month I used up to look for jobs in the states
I did find one but
unfortunately as my EAD card processing time took up a month time and they hire somebody else
Then they offer me another lower position
I rejected
You know when you want to reject or even to do something
You'll find thousands of reasons/excuses to cover up your ass
Me too
But now i guess the main reason is i'm tired
I need a shoulder to lean on
I need to let go of something to get a new start
I need to be recharged
But now that I've fully charged
I'm all ready for the next challenge
And I've told myself not to simply let go of something next time
I'm a big girl now
I wont run away from problem next time
I'll face them with head held high

But I seriously need a job now lol
I'm not sure if i'm too demanding
But yes thus far i've only applied for singapore jobs
Never for malaysia jobs
May be i should try right
But i'm going down singapore next week
So imma put all my focus on singapore
3 months later still can't get one
I'm coming back again lol
shit
Another 3 months starts ticking
Luckily my family has been supporting all this while

This 2 to 3 months
I've made myself feel excellent
Morning - Yoga / Jogging 3 to 4 times a week
Evening - Swimming twice a week
Books - Books are a great source to improve yourself
You can tell if a person read or doesn't by the way they talk
Guys who read a lot never fails to impress me lol
The recent book i've read is Live well, Love much, Laugh often
Singaporean author
It took me quite sometime to swallow what he has to say in the book
Too much info
Basically his main focus it to advise people how to think positively
Which I'm trying to do now
Those who are looking for jobs now especially for finance position
Will definitely get what i meant
It is frustrating when you get only one or two reply out of 30 resumes you've sent
NVM
I'm still gonna get to you
No matter how hard it is

Happy Valentine's Day,
Xuan <3

We Found Love in a hopeless place

hehheehhee
as i said before
must write them out before i forget them
Halloween party 2011
It was the most awesome party i ever had
The first time i ever really enjoy dancing all night
I think because i really let loose of myself that night :)
Dance with random stranger



Jessica and meee :)


Shawn the penguin


XX


Han Zhe


Ben Aw the demon


June and ka wai :DD


Eric and Cha nee the party queen :)



whenever i hear this song
everything happened that night flow to my mind haha
Dance with one cute Indian like most of the night
Looks young
But he is cute
He never try to pok mong me like other guys did
In fact he tried to protect me by 'elbowing' guys that came near me haha
He even ask if I'm tired
Took a break and dance again
So cute and considerate right lol
For a few moments i thought i was in love lol
Regret of not giving him my number lol

And then came another ang mo
Eh this ang mo is cute too
Not exaggerating
He is man-type of cute
The indian guy is kiddo-type of cute
But he gives me the feelings that he will bring me home that night LOL
So I kept a distance from him
Mom said i should have give number to him lol

Unbelievable right
Two cute guys approached me leh
I never know I so charming one in club leh hahah

Hope years later later i still can remember :DD

Memory puzzle

Few days ago
Alitan, Qing, Jik Nen, Zhe Kun and i went to the island karaoke
When we walked through Prangin
Alitan said "Still remember last time we came here and shop for formal cloths"
Qing also remember
Me
Can't remember a single thing

Then we came to this game arcade shop
Qing said "Still remember we play this futsal game with teik ning and sian hong"
Alitan also remember
Again sadly
I don't :(

I think I have some sorta Alzhemeir ;(
My memory only can store one or two year stuffs
Two years or above unless its very very extremely significannttt
I dont think i can remember :(((

I'm so Dolly
My future husband must be good at remembering things
Cause he has to remember my part as well :(

From now on
I must blog more
To remind me of my past !!!!

1st Avenue Penang


That movie "那些年， 我们一起追的女孩"
I really wonder if a person feeling for another can really be so strong even after years?
Without ever really being together???!!!!
Because it never happens on me lol
I have lost the strong feelings to those people I used to like after years
Dont know this is a sad or happy thing lol

I have to use my brain more to train my memory liaooo!!!!

Peace and Love,
Xuan <3

最后一次想念你

看了那么多我朋友写关于她的ex
突然间也想写一些
如果你看到这篇
别紧张 哈哈
没有要讲坏你

我和他
如何开始
我也不知道
只记得好像很奇怪的
原以为告白后
成功就会在一起

可是这个人告了白
第二天就缩身
做一些戏要让我止步
好咯
我就退了

可是缘分很奇妙的
我们就好像吵了又好
好了又吵又好
一点都不像我lol
我好像不能和人吵架的
结果还是在一起一下下
现在再让我遇到这种
emotional unavailable的人
就算有多喜欢
我都会溜人

那天我回马来西亚
我们最后一次通的电话
当时的我很难过
你好像把全部责任推给我
分手一事
是我提的
是我要的
你什么都没说
你还说
这是我初恋
所以我不懂
一直怀疑你不喜欢我
怀疑到最后自己偷看到
就要分手
还有我做错了很多事
当时的我也那么认为
都是我的错

可是现在
我想说
情侣在一起就只有两种结果
一，结婚
二，分手
不知你还记得
你和我在一起的时候
你曾经告诉我
你不想结婚
不想要孩子
我知道你是怕结婚
你说过
结婚之后不可以离婚
要像你的爸爸妈妈一样
永远恩恩爱爱的
你不想那么快定下来
全部是你亲口说的
你还一直提醒我
万一分手
当作是一个学习的经验
你对我们的未来都没有信心了
你叫我怎样有信心

会讲这种话的就是定不下来的人说的
起码也要等个几年或十几年
我不怪你
你还年轻
理所当然不想那么快被绑
你好过很多人咯
就是那些和你一样不能定下来的人
可是他们却留着身边那女人
走了几年又不娶她
浪费她的青春

你还说我宁愿相信别人都不相信你
要是我相信别人
我们根本都不会开始吧
你的花边新闻很么多
我还是选择相信你说的话
所以不管别人的事
是我们之间的问题

你说我们性格不合
因为我要安全感
你要自由
没错
可是这不是性格不合
只是你不想定
我的问题
就是不能让你定 lol

对了
以后分手
像你对你的前前女友比较好
一刀两断比较好
我错了
不需要解释那么多了
嘻嘻
对要分手的情侣
越残忍就是越慈悲
其实我没说过分手后要当朋友
不知你做么一直觉得我说过
以后分手
也不要说
“也许这不是分手，只是做回朋友'
这会让人误会以后还可能有机会
可是我知道你不是这个意识
你真的只是要友情而已

其实我知道你以前私底下对我真的很好
我要什么你尽量都会配合
你还向我投诉别人都觉得你在欺负我
私底下其实是我在欺负你
我真的觉得恋爱的我有点神经质
爽爽用头撞你的胸口
爽爽又乱打乱摸你
爽爽讲一些乱七八糟的话
你都没有生气
还常常逗我开心
又照顾我
把从来没重过45kg的我
养到48kg
只不过
去到外面不懂为什么就比较有距离感
别人都觉得你对我不认真
你自己都说
你在私底下对我好
出去对我不好
而你的前前女友
私底下对她不好
出去对她很好
为什么不能里外都好呢
这问题我想只有你知道

其实你付出的应该比我多
因为我在想我为你做过什么的时候
其实真的不多
饭你做给我吃
去哪里你载我去
我说话你听
你都没有要求我做什么

其实我会的很少
还煮焦你的鸡蛋
弄坏你的锅
又常常丢三落四
可能还有很多东西
所以要是你嫌我这些而分手
我不会怪你
这只是证明我们不是meant for each other
你放心
我已经不再怪自己
也不埋怨你
我接受了
结束是另一段的开始 ：）
下一次的恋情
一定会更好 ：）

我们分手后
我知道你还很关心我
我还记得别人欺负我时
你一副想要帮我出头的样子
真的很好笑

谢谢你
谢谢你在美国时照顾我
谢谢你让我对自己更有自信
谢谢你其实一直都是想让我好

我没有后悔过喜欢你
只是该停了
我会好好的
你也要一样

为什么最后一次
因为我不会再写你了
你将在我记忆中淡化咯
我走啦
拜拜

Peace & Love,
Xuan

Family outing :)

Went to doctor Liew again
Our family loves him
Cause he is nice, patient and likes to give medicine haha
Still remember the first time i went to see him
He said my back is all stiff
And advised me not to use computer for ONE year
I dont think anyone will follow this advice
So do I

This time
I complained about my knees
When he checked out on my knee by rolling my knee from right to the left
It feels like the bones are dislocated and disconnected
He let out a big sighs again haha
"你的膝盖退化了拉”
And then prescribe me glucosamine
Which my daddy taking now to cure his knees too lol
Kns
Not only my knees hurts
Both my ankle sometimes hurts too
Is it because i'm Saggittarian
Saggittarian most vulnerable part is on the legs
I think so haha

Luckily nothing serious happened to all of us ;)
All can be cured :)

Then we off to Gua Jerai located beside Gurun
Wow the hill is much more dangerous than Genting
The road is way more narrower and inclined
Scarrryyy
But not many visitors so it was fine
We were there because daddy miss the waterfall where his last visit was 30 years ago
Daddy was shock when he reached
Because the fall is almost dry
The water is significantly lesser than 30 years ago :(

Sad
The Earth is sick now
Europe is having the worse snow week in the decades
Australia too
US surprisingly not much snow
And the local call it weird weather
What can I do to save the Earth?

Well
Back to my day
Although I'm tanner now
It was a cool and fun family day trip :)
I love my family :)


Just get to know another friend of mine broke up :(
Although it has been months
Apparently she's still struggling
Hope time will take away her pain :)
Valentine's Day is nearing
I wish all couple stay sweet together!!!
To the singles like me!
Valentine's day is a day to remind us to love ourselves even more! :)
Because we need to fall in love with ourselves before we fall in love with someone else :)

Peace & Love,
Xuan

Commitment Phobics

I have this boy friend
Just a few weeks ago
He told me his relationship problems
He really like this girlfriend who is now in Singapore
They have been together for more than one year
He can even see his future with her
He asked me how to make his girlfriend committed to him just like him to her
I told him some of the ways that will generally touch a girl
But I also asked him to be prepare
That this girl will withdraw herself anytime if he force her too much
And today they broke up

We can never force a commitment phobic to commit to one person or one thing
One method to deal with these commitment phobics is to live happily yourself
Show them that you can live with or without them
And then let them figure out their own problem
If they can't see their future with you
No matter how hard you try to persuade him that both of you have a future
They will leave eventually

If they finally figure out you're the one
They will come back to you
So don't stick around with them
Go out make more friends
See if there are other options out there
If he or she can't commit
You don't too =)

Well love...
To me is like
Either you're hurt by others
Or you hurt others
Then the person who gets hurt gets scared
And he or she might be reserved in the next relationship
Then if the relationship doesn't work out again
The next person gets hurt
Like a cycle
Until you finally open out your heart and found a person who eventually open out his or her heart too
When both parties finally knows how to love maturely

All the broke up reasons are bullshits to me
Because love is a choice
You choose not to love this person
You choose to love this person

Love is still beautiful
We just need to learn