Mar 28, 2013

25 Years Old


So, I’ve resigned. It’s a big relief for me. Away from the woman, away from all the messy system, messy paper work, messy double work etc. I felt awesome, at least for now. I do not know what the challenges ahead are, but what I do know is I do not want to take this crappy job anymore.

This year, I’m turning 25.

25 years old, it used to be so far away. But here I’m, turning 25.  It’s a total different stage of life. You’re an adult now. You are to make your own decision and be responsible for it. Parents can’t always be there to wipe off your mess.

25 years old, I’ve started receiving wedding invitation from friends every now and then surprisingly. I still feel young, so not ready to get marry yet. From house loan to electricity to house chores to baby, gosh the responsibility is so big. Okay, I sounds like I have some responsibility issue but yea I’m not comfortable at doing something if I don’t think I’ll do it well.

25 years old, a little bit wiser, a little bit more mature, a little bit stronger than a few years back. I’ve been hurt badly, cried enough. Changing from a strange place to another, I’ve learn to be more independent, more flexible, more understanding. All of the problems I once faced become an asset to me. I got knock down but I got back up.  I’ve learn to put down my ego. I’ve learn to learn things. And I’m still learning.

25 years old, everything has been great for me. Thank God. I love my 25 years old. I don’t feel old. I feel wiser. I feel prettier. I feel more confidence. I feel good J

Mar 9, 2013

Humanity

Last night company dinner
6 or more were drunk
2 were completely knocked out
I was awake
Very awake and was watching the people who drunk and not drunk
What shivered me was one colleague who wasn't drunk
She appeared completely merciless to other colleagues who were drunk
First
She keep asking whether we wanted to leave
Cause she wanted to take the same MRT as us
Then she said she's going to scold those who drunk next Monday
Then what gives me creeps was when she said
"Just leave the two knocked out people sleep here la, wait until they awake, then can drive back already. Leave them here, normally after 4 hours they'll awake and by the time they can go back themselves"
"They are man what. Nothing to scared of what.
Please note that the two drunk guys were completely drunk
They can did nothing except sitting and vomiting
Hello? How can they take care of themselves when they were not sober at all?
I was thinking what if she's the one who was knocked out
Will she ever want people to just leave her there?
I don't understand why some people can just be so cold-blooded

I don't know if it was because of her unmarried status that caused her to be so emotionless
Or it was because of her cold-blooded nature that caused her can't get married
My company has the most unmarried old women
The two obvious traits that i found in them are very hot-tempered and show no sympathy towards the needy people
So I tell myself
I want to get married!
I don't want to be like them in the future
Scary

Feb 22, 2013

SAY NO TO PIMPLESSSS

Oh dear
I do not know why
WHY
Why is there acne outbreaks in my face
And its A LOT
I do not know the real cause
Is really the stress from work causing all the outbreak
Or is there something else
I used to ignore the acnes in my face because its few and negligible
Normally I just let it dry out and fall itself

NOW
It's so scarrry that I wanted to scratch them out whenever i look into the mirror
:(
Many people are scolding me for not taking care of my face
Okay
3 months time
I shall kill all the acnes
Let no pimples survive at my face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHH!~~~~~~~~~~

Feb 16, 2013

Our first Valentine

Our first Valentine
From not knowing how to pick a flower to this bouquet of flower
It took Mr Gan nearly 2 hours
According to him
He's an expert now
I shall wait for your next bouquet of flower to see your expertise in this huh
Xie xie ni~~


Happy Valentine's Day
Thanks for not running on that day
Thanks for the flower making
Thank you dear dear

Jan 26, 2013

Our love



Mark & Victoria <3 p="">
Love the way you look into my eyes and say "Such a beautiful girl" 
Love the way you hug me and say "I love you"
Love the way you got nervous when I got mad
Love the way you give in to me when I got really mad
Love the way you call me "Dear dear"
Love the way you say "Dear, your the best!"
I've never felt such a love before
Love from you
Love from God

Thank God for bringing you to me
Thank God for opening up my heart to You
Thank God for you no longer force me to go Bedok with you
Thank God for you voluntarily carry my things now
Thank God that we do not sins against each other
Thank God that we love each other
Thank God that we love God

Pray that God will continue to lead us in our daily life
Pray that we'll grow more righteous, loving and forgiving each day
And pray that we will keep our faith strong
Amen

Jan 20, 2013

Sunday school

Because I don't quite speak fluent English
I was forced to speak in English
Well done
More and more people wants me to speak in English
So I need to familiarize myself more with this lovely language 
Think in English
Speak in English
Pray in English
So that chou ah dear won't have a chance to laugh at my English HNG

Thank God today once again speak to me through the pastors 
You reminded me how trivial the problems I'm facing now compare to the things your handling
All the problems I'm facing is just so tiny in your eyes
Just like when a kid cry over a broken car toy
We adult see it as nothing at all
We even laugh at the kids crying over small thing
But of course God permits the "problems" happen because He know that we've got something to learn from it
Dear God
Your wisdom is beyond our understanding
Just like a kid will never understand the things their parents do for them

I still remember there's this time when dear dear and me was in Bintan
Dear wanted to go cycle but it was raining heavily
I thought i can continue with my nap
Who knows seconds later the rain stopped amazingly
Totally stopped
I was shocked 
But then I realized that with God nothing is impossible 
God has answered dear's prayers
Today pastors was saying his testimony
He has had so many times that the rain just stopped suddenly and that he can continue with his preaching work
Have faith and God will do the rest 







Jan 3, 2013

Would you marry me

"Would you marry me"
4 words that carries the most responsibility
Normally guy say it only once in a lifetime
After much considerations

Likewise
Normally girls were asked about this question once
But
I've lost count on how many times you've said to me
Until its no longer a surprise to me
Can't believe you even send to Van's phone!!!

What are you thinking Mr Gan