Reunion dinner 2014

This reunion dinner was like none ever before
I did something I didn't think of doing
Everything was fine until the thanksgiving/prayer meeting
Everyone was suppose to read the verse, feel what God is trying to tell you through the verse and share your experiences for the past one year and how does the verse can help you in this 2014

Here is the verse I got:
God is righteous
"Teach me your way, LORD, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name." Psalm 86:11
When I got this verse, I tried to think how this relates to me for the past one year
I had to admit I was kinda nervous
Mark's relatives speak good English and their Chinese is not very good
I know they didn't look down on me like most Singaporeans would do, instead they tried to help me relax by singing chinese hymms even they can't read chinese character
That makes me even more nervous

Okay it was my turn
I breathe in and courteously asked "can i speak in Mandarin"
Although I can speak in English
But at that point of time
I just feel more comfortable to use Chinese
After finishing the first sentence
I....cried.....
Yes I cried....
I didn't even know why did I cry
I just feel like crying
People who know me know I don't usually cry in front of people
Since nursery school, I don't cry in front of friends, teachers I just don't
I usually cry to myself
I don't know what the heck was wrong with me
I CRIED
And it continued until the prayer meeting ends
I can't even utter more than 3 words

May be I have been pushing myself too hard
May be God is telling me its okay to cry
Its okay to admit that I'm weak
I myself didn't see this coming
I just cried......
I wasn't that depressed
I wasn't that upset
I just cried.....in front of everybody
May be because of pms
May be because my sick landlord's sister slam me on the back earlier that day affected me
May be because of my family pressure
May be because Holy Spirit just touches me

And then I remember just few weeks ago
Church member told me that there was a mafia's gang head in our church
Did a lot of bad things like trafficking drugs, killing people etc
By God's grace, he repented and became a Christian and his whole life changed
Church member told me the first time when he attended Christmas carol
He cried unstoppably throughout the whole carol
People ask him "why did you cry, its just some kids singing hymms"
He said "I don't know, I just want to cry, God's love is so great"
Church member told me "He cried because Holy Spirit touches him

Yea perhaps its the same thing here
I don't know
I really don't know
I don't know why I cried
Its more like a little bit of everything add up together

Nonetheless,
I love reunion dinner like this
Thanksgiving and prayer meeting
I feel calm and peace and relax
Thank you God
Glory to the Highest
Amen

BOOO

I have been eating out ever since I started working in Singapore
For one year plus I have not touch the cooking pot
I miss home cooked food so badly that I bought some chicken, vegetables etc today
Thinking of making a nice meal to my lovely nice man and myself
After unfreezing the chicken, washing the veges, cutting all the garlic
All ready to cook
Saliva slurping in my mouth
Happily
I tried to switch on the gas
GUESS WHAT
NO GAS!!!!!
Because its not my own house
I can't just order the gas
SADLY
I threw away the garlics
Refreeze the chicken
And pack up the veges
AND I EAT OUT AGAIN

Been very occupied and finally found some time to cook yet NO GAS!!!!!!
:'(

Well enough lamenting
back to study ACCA again
I think I will quit this 8 to 5 work one day
It's eating out all my time
Anybody out there needs a part time maid?
Hee

The month of December

It's my favourite month once again!!~~~
Because there's Christmas Day!!!!!
Jesus's birthday!!~~
Merry Christmas to the world~~~~
Then its my birthday!!!~~~~
Happy birthday to myself heee
And it's the end of one year
Meaning its time to assess ourselves what have we done for the past one year
And set new goals for next year~~~
1) Kill ACCA F3, F6 &F7 papers (sei mei)
2) Learn some Japanese
3) Finish bible Old Testament (at least once)
4) Hopefully can move to new house again :(
5) Learn from new coming Finance manager
6) MOST IMPORTANTLY, a more Christ-like Jia Xuan :)

These few months have been busy preparing for ACCA :'(
Life has not been very easy
Seriously finally I understand work and study life is really challenging
Perseverance, determination, patient, discipline oh well
I'm sure those who are like me can list down more things

It has been quite a while since I last wrote my boyfriend Mark
Imma write about him again heeee
I know
He loves me very much
Because he is willing to change for me
Slowly slowly he is becoming a better person ;p
And he will not let me go
Thank God for changing him
Of course there's something I need to praise him
Whenever I ask this or that girl pretty or not
He has this standard answer
"Average, your the prettiest"
Vic: "Above or below average"
Mark: "Below"
Showed him another few more girls that I think pretty
All  he replied "below"
Vic: "Then me leh"
Mark:"Above........Only you and Miranda Kerr above.
And it wasn't just one or two times
It has happened many times
This bf never once fall into my trap
Although I know its not true
Thank you for the effort
Because I like it haha
I mean girls will like it
Thank you dude
heheeheh

The sudden death

Paul Walker is dead
第一眼看到面子书流传时
还以为是假的
再搜索后
心情不禁沉了下来

车祸死了
没有心理预备的死是让人最难接受的
虽然我不是粉丝
但发现他是个活在基督里的基督徒
也是一个爱上帝的人
那么多人为他的死感到惋惜
就知道他的生命影响了很多人

刚好今天牧师和我说
你刚出世时
每个人围在你身边笑
你哭
那你死的时候
是否围着你身边的人为你的死感到惋惜而哭
还是心里OS说这人终于死了

虽然世界少了一个小天使
天堂却多了一个天使
:)
Prayers to the family of Paul Walker



Revelation 717
For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of
waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.

分手后

以前我不明白
为什么
有个基督徒的爸爸妈妈反对
自己的基督徒孩子
和不是基督徒的女朋友交往
现在
我懂了

可怜的朋友
因为和一个假装是基督徒的人交往
后来才发现原来他根本是很反对基督徒的人
狠下心分手
结果那男的变得像另个人般
有点精神分裂
还说神向他说话
可怜的朋友
第一次谈恋爱
就遭遇这情况
还要担心他会对她不利
因为他说的话太吓人了
顿时觉得他很恐怖

只能说
交往前要看清楚对方
是不是他所说的一样
恋爱也不要一个头栽进去
说容易做时难

哎
分手
这痛苦的过程
也只有神用时间治疗

马克甘
你看看
我们还有很多功课要做
一远离神
就有很多问题
要多多审查自己！！


2 Corinthians 6:14
Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with
lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?

Be Thou My Vision

最近好喜欢这首诗歌
还有其他很好听很动人的基督徒诗歌
最经典的Amazing Grace更是听了白遍还是打进心坎里的歌
还有无数首歌原来都是上帝感动基督徒写出来赞美神的诗歌
如果你不是真神
那些写歌的没有经历过你
怎能写出赞美你感激你让人听了心能得到安慰的歌呢

让我想起我以前的同事说
基督徒都好像很会唱歌
想一想好像是哦
上帝给很多他的仆人一把好嗓子就是要赞美神呀
上帝的计划真的太美好
自从认识你我好多的疑惑都被解开了
很感激神父打开我的眼睛让我看到你
这世界再也没有更好的事了
知道有一个爱我的上帝
人生太美好了

曾经我抵抗你，拒绝你，干你憎恨的事情
主耶稣的神，荣耀的神
你没有放弃我
谢谢你，荣耀全归于你

Matthew 13:16 

But blessed are your eyes, for they see, and your ears, for they hear.

又 瘦了

最近
做工以来最忙的一次
连续一个星期做12-13小时的工
也不知是工作的压力
还是天天和强手打羽毛球

我又瘦了
44公斤
不是很好的体重
好怕在瘦下去
可不可以别再瘦了