太崩溃了

长期处在全公司最冷风最大的位置
再加上黑斯小姐最近不断的探访
可怜的免疫系统通知我它很累
我的生活就剩下喝水与上厕所
连同事们都说我是水桶
结果去看医生
张开嘴巴医生说
太干了水不够
那时刻
真的太令人崩溃了
喝下的水都去了哪儿啊
是白喝了吗？

下星期又是令人惧怕的一周
为什么就那么多的VVIP
为什么身为一个会计师也要见客
日本的有钱人都好可怕

希望我的免疫系统在强壮起来
我需要你陪我一起加油呀

Study! Again!

So ACCA
And this time is FOR REAL
I've finally press down the "apply" button
Congratulations to myself
5 years from now
I am a Certified ACCA
Thank you thank you

And I'm moving out from the scary old landlady house
Moving to a cheap strategic awesome big room
Hooray again!~

Year 2013 has been a very great year for me
My 2012 resolution is realising one by one
Love

Thank you God

I intend to be your last

" He is your first love, I intend to be your last. However long it takes."- Klaus - The Vampire Diaries

Ohhhh dear 

This is my FAVOURITE quote in the vampire diaries season finale!!!!!
Klaus, used to be the biggest villain in the drama
When he falls in love with Caroline
He has changed to a different person
So does Damon
From a badass to a hero after falling in love with Elena

Love can change a person
And only love has the magic

And we tends to forget how bad the person was in the past after he has changed
We are happy to see the change
And we give our blessings to the couple

But in reality
Will the person changed for good
Or will the bad side of him comes back to him, again
We do not know
The story always ends after the couple gets married

I
Always hope I am one of the girls who can change their partner to a better one
Of course at the same time he change me to a better person
My goal is very simple
I want a balance work life
I want a happy harmony godly family
I want to be more Christ like

黑，马

眼泪
心痛
都是因为它黑得太突然
黑得让人不知所措
黑得让你不禁觉得心寒
人可以坏到这样的地步

相信很多和我一样
几年前还是政治冷感的人
今天不断追看更新
希望突然看到什么转机

它突然黑的时候
真的很难过
第一次为国家失眠
可这不算什么
因为我知道
比我难过的还有整个马来西亚

我问上帝为什么
为什么又让这个残暴的君主统治
可是当我看到接下来的Bersih
人民好像开始不分种族
那么的第一次
马来西亚好像真的团结了

我就知道我不应该质问上帝
上帝让他赢一定有他的原因
我们只要耐心的等
有信心的等
要知道
上帝是个公义的神


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在这里还要恭贺我老哥
我不知道为什么我尽然有一个IQ168的老哥
那么的聪明
恭喜他拿到美国专业评审今年全世界金融科公认最好的paper
希望读者也会喜欢他的作品
再被publish到世界前三最好的journal
老哥真的太有材了
我还在干吗？

1st labor day everrr

Time fliessss
Hardly believe that I've already graduated one year plus and worked for nearly 1 year already!!!!!
Every moment of the college days feel like it happened yesterday
They say you will miss pre university life than university life
I say i miss both
Actually may be university life in US even more
OH WELL
BACK TO REALITY

First year of work
It has been a rough year
Bad log
Problematic system
Missing documents
All report is not correct
And a fresh finance student need to deal with all these shit
To science students finance and accounting are the same
Only business students understand the differences
In short,
Accounting is for recording the past
Finance is for predicting the future
So I don't have much accounting knowledge
And I don't really have a supervisor to guide me
The supervisor is so so bad that the whole company dislike her
And the boss is about to sack her at the point she finished her job
Yea this is how bad she is
Not only she didn't teach me
She pushes all the responsibility to me
But luckily I have a bunch of good colleagues
When anything happens like boss accused you after listening to the supervisor
You know your not in the wrong position when all the colleagues stand by you

Even tough i know i did wrongly (OF COURSE I have nobody to guide me hee)
But when the same field person said you did a great job
That I've already done my best
And sided me even tough I wasn't around
You know all the hard work worth it

The best comments I've ever received
"年轻人通常比较冲动，但是你没有。你比其他同年龄的同事有耐力。"
"虽然你没有accounting background，但是你比那个有accounting background的好。你懂的比他多"
"Jia Xuan already did her best" by auditor SPin
"Jia Xuan really 很厉害, so many things i wonder how could she do it, I can't do it seriously" by CChuen
"Jia Xuan you really 很细心" by April

Although I found it hard to take the last one since I'm so a blur person
But this one year does help improve me to become a more detailed person
Until today I still find it so hard to believe that I survived the first job
I really nearly quit the job for quite a few times
Somehow God has given me enough strength to hang in there
Jesus has sent Mark to help me
How do I not love Jesus?
I don't even know why I doubt you sometimes
You've given me much more than I needed

My second job
Another challenge
Set up a whole new accounting system
And key in one whole year transaction
People say accounting is an easy job
But so far
I haven't find it that easy yet hee
But I've learn much
May be in few years time I'll say it's easy

Once again
I want to thank my Lord Jesus again
Thanks for giving this job
Thanks for the increment of salary
Thanks for loving me
I love Jesus =D

Sudden increment that made my day!

Okay
I'm so EXCITED!!!!!
When there's an unexpected big sudden jump in your salary
YOU'LL SO LOVE YOUR JOB!!!

I know I can't get the same salary elsewhere may be even after two years time
This is just pure coincidence
I promise to myself I'm so gonna do my work well
I'll give my best
I'll nail it down
I shall not fail you, Dear God
Thanks for the increment
I shall use it wisely

Everything has changed

说真的
自从认识了创造整个宇宙万物的创世主后
我的生命完全改变了

以前的我
做的是我觉得对的
或者世界让我觉得是没错的
世俗的东西
都想说怎样享受人生
没有所谓的对与错
只要自己觉得对就对
没错
都是自己
也就是这个自己
世界上的人都因为这个自己
才产生那么多问题

越注重自己的人
越容易被绊倒
往往得忧郁症的都是这些人

曾经我也是一样
直到我认识了耶稣基督
我才知道
原来全部发生的事情都是有原因的

为什么会有人
为什么人会死
为什么一星期有七天
为什么今年是2013年
为什么女人生孩子那么痛
为什么女人会那么情绪化
为什么男人要做工养家
为什么人是万兽之灵
为什么会有天灾
好多的为什么
原来圣经早在3千年前回答这些问题了
原来是有对和错的

还记得有个朋友说
圣经根本没说到他是神
当时信以为真
直到自己读了才看到神的荣耀

为什么有些人看不到神
或觉得根本没有神
就是因为自傲
其实我们什么都不是
根本没什么值得骄傲

那创造我们的神
谢谢你施给我的恩
让我认识你
我会向你学习
把自己更像你
希望您能继续领导我
带领我和马克做对的事情