Utilizing free time

I've been searching
What are the things that interest me most
What are the hidden talents that God gave me that awaiting me to dig out
What are the things that I enjoy doing
I feel like being a freelancer
That I don't have to worry being retrenched!!!
Have my own free time
Plan to do whatever I want to do

Yea
Dreams are always beautiful
Been searching for the so called 'calling'?
Haha

But whatever the case is
Imma try to do all sorta things
I'm happy to say that
I can cook better now
I can sew better now
I clean up my house
I read up some books

I have to say sometimes its very boring
But no i must keep the positive thinking on

My dear talents gifts from God
Please come out soon so that i may continue to develop and cultivate you
Hee <3 p="">

Because He lives

This year, I'm turning 27 years old~
And I've had 3 years of working experiences
Very experienced?
Nop I guess not yet
Everyday I look at the mirror
I still feel I look 21 years old
Don't judge okay !
Just yesterday
I was playing ping pong with a random auntie
And she asked are you in JC? (Meaning A level, not even university WOOHOO haha)
I'm sorry I haven't receive such question for quite some time
Please allow me to feel proud for a while lolz

2015 has not been an easy year for me
But guess what I think that makes me even a better and stronger person!!!~
This is how God shapes a person isn't it
In less than half a year my last company closed down
While I still enjoying the honey moon period in a new company

Company underwent restructuring and my position was made redundant
WHATT?
Yes!!!! Totally unexpected!~~
31st July 2015
I think that day will be forever stored in my mind
I will never forget how my HR and my manager told me this news
Feelings?
Shocked, surprised, unexpected, extremely upset
First
HR told me company underwent restructuring and it has affected your employment ........
Then my manager tried to console me by telling me this wasn't performance based decision, because bla bla bla....I've fought for you but..... then he stopped
It was a dead silence in the room
Then I hold back my tears and I told him
"It's okay, I understand. I know you've tried. I can find another job"
Yea I was actually quite surprised that I can be so calm and I can actually listen to all they have to say

And I remember he continue
"I'm not worried you finding another job, your good at what your doing, your a great professional...... I'm sorry, I didn't even know what to say now."
Then it was another dead silence in the room
Then he continued "You can blame me, I'm really sorry."
But I know he really did his best to 'fight' for me
How could I blame him?
Immediately I felt holy spirit is comforting me by telling me that God has another plan for me
If this is not because of my performance
Then this job is not for me and God has intervened and bring me out of the company
I can feel its hard for him to tell me this news
That what makes me even more touched
And I couldn't hold my tears anymore

Then my another two supervisors bring me out for coffee to comfort me
That day I packed my things and left the company for good
I went back I cried until I had a bad headache
Now I look back
I thank them for their understanding that its really hard to continue to work after hearing such news
They just said leave whenever you feel like
They are a bunch of really nice bosses and colleagues
But I will submit to God's plan for me :)

Today I am still unemployed
But I'm less worried compared to last time
I took 2 weeks to mourn and I'm back!!!~~~
I know God is in charge of my life
I really want to thank God
Even my friends said I don't look like i was just being "sacked"
I look so relax and normal

I know it very clearly this calmness that i'm feeling right now is not from me
Not from my own strength
The old Xuan will depressed for few months i guess may be longer? Lolz
The Lord has pulled me through this hard time
He comforted me with His own word

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 

in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

Because He lives, I can stand tomorrow :)

好幸福的我 ，3

太久没来啦
太久没笔下我现下状况
好怕脑袋太笨的我
常常忘记我想记得的东西

2015年
好像经历还蛮多的
2014 年尾公司倒闭
在烦怎么办时
上帝很宽容的给了我PR
本来需要至少4到6个月的等待时间
老天爷提前发给我安慰我这小信心的人
本来做好最坏的打算
因为现在PR实在太难拿
听到了太多被拒绝的案例

可是上帝把时间都安排了刚刚好
公司倒闭前一个月给我PR
要公司证明我下一个月还在那工作
签完名公司就关那种
迟一点应该又有很多手续要办
或者没拿到话我找工作更压力

只能说
上帝是信实的
只是他有他自己的时间点

再来
新的工作
虽然找了个2，3个月找到有点心急
上帝再次跟我说我白担心了
找到的这份工是我目前能拿到最好的工作了

再来
压力到我出了睡眠问题的2个ACCA考试
我都Pass 了
都是过一点点
真的太幸运了
真的是太幸福了
有着上帝对我的爱
我实在是太幸福了
<3 p="">

好喜欢这些照片

First impression

What would you feel when you got to know
Boss first impression of you during interview was
"Look smart, Looks very independent,
 This girl looks like can survive without any boyfriend"
Even tough we can't really understand each other
I can't understand his English and neither do him
Ermmm ermmmm
Hmmm
Should I be happy?
Do I look too manly
Or its just very capable women lol

Capable women?
Does God really want me to be a career women?
Actually I used to have big ambition
Climb up corporate ladder
Earn big bucks 
But ever since I have known my Lord, Jesus Christ
I only hope is to serve Him well
In whatever environment I was put in
I only want to serve the Lord
To God be the glory =D

But all in all
I think I should be happy???
For the first impression wasn't that bad after all? 
Although I feel I don't look that capable??
Or its just I undermine my capability? lol

Colleague helped me to make up haha
yea guess this is some skills that I need a lot of time to learn ;p

Happy Birthday@@@~~~♡♥

Happy Birthday qing ai de~~♡♥
I know I am not a very good girlfriend
The number of times I cook for you can be counted with 10 fingers
Pants-sewing twice
Other times I really dont know what I do anymore lolz
Yea I am a failed girlfriend
I am only good at work, study acca and read bible
Sorry....I know bible says girls must take care of household including cooking cleaning etc
Which I still have lots of rooms for improvement heehe
So that guys can go out work n earn living for the family
So I shall brush up my skills

And you are not kind to me
Gluten free diet
And I can only came out with these dishes
Guess I need to study more about gluten free food
So that I can cook variety of dishes :-)


But thank God that it wasn't that bad
Think if i really want to learn i still can do a pretty good job?

Happy very belated birthdayyy

Fishmie

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii my lovely little secret place
It has been months since I last sawww you
Missss meee????
Attached is my golden fish picture
Do I look likeee onee?

Life is bussyyyy
I can't believe I'm letting my work getting rid of my precious private time
*sob sob*
Many things happened
I moved house
I have a new manager
I have worked my butt off

Ahh
Not to mentioned
I have found my courage to talk to boss about my manager not doing his work
woohoooo
Give praise to myself hehehee
Yea two years of working experience have taught me quite some things
Sometimes you really need to SPEAK
Else people really don't know what your going through
And be firm in your position if it is the correct thing to do
And do not be afraid to suggest for if you think it can enhance/ improve working environment
Do not be afraid of admitting mistakes
For people actually just want to see you know you did wrong and your gonna change
Not you trying to hide the mistakes
Because there's nothing you can really hide at work
No matter how well you think you can hide
Someday it will be uncovered

Thank you God for the bible
For you have revealed everything in the bible for exp here how to be a man
Being very honest
Not to afraid to speak out for truth
These are some of the rules i apply at my work and i feel it works so well
Even if i get sacked for speaking the truth
I know God already has a plan for me =D

And~~~
I'm so excited i'm going to attend the very first church camp in my whole life
I can't wait to listen to what God wants to tell me through his servants <3 p="">Hopefully one day I am good enough in Your eyes to serve You

And there were many things happened in these past three months
MH370, Korea ferry, Taiwan subway killing case, etc and etc
Very depressing news
Yea my colleague and my house's maid were telling me
The world is like going to an end
Yes I said
The world is coming to an end
For things in the world will get messier and messier
More depressing news is going to come
Disaster will be more and more
And yes finally the end of the world will be the second coming of Jesus
But I have peace in me because bible already reveal all these

Heavenly Father
Thank you <3 p="">
Thanks for revealing the future to me
Thanks for peace within my soul <3 p="">

I hate OT

I still remember before I started work
I stayed in my relatives house in Johor
My aunt said one day you'll be a career woman too
I told her firmly
Ï won't la
Yeaaa
For the first years
I have been trying to not OT and go home on time
And now........
Meeee.....
You know......
Once you OT
You can't stoppp

Damn it
I hate OT
But I have no choiceeeeeeeeee
2, 3 days MC also need to forgo
Ah!!~~~It seems forever to end this
Ever since i came back from Penang
My body has not been very welll
Wu.............


Okay
Since I don't really like this OT thing which is a norm in Singaporeee

AUSTRALIA is my next target!!~~~~
But of course if that is Your Will....

:)